What is it that makes most of the world’s greatest books or movies great? Costumes and gorgeous scenery always work for me but if you set those aside it’s dialogue. Who can forget “Frankly my dear I don’t give a damn”, “Fasten your seatbelts it’s going to be a bumpy night”, “That’s all”, “Have fun storming the castle!”, and “Here’s looking at you, kid”. If you have a favorite movie then I’m willing to bet you can quote at least a couple of lines from it. If you’re like my husband and it’s The Big Lebowski then you can do the entire movie verbatim and to suit any occasion- which is a startling accomplishment from a man who can’t remember what we fought about at the Macaroni Grill in Denver on July 4, 1998 (I’m just saying).
Why then is dialogue one of the hardest things in real life? I’m sure there are massive groups of people out there who say exactly what they mean all the time (and not just the crazies, extremists, fundamentalists, haters etc.) but honestly, I don’t know any of them. When it counts we clam up. Not when it’s just a rude driver or inattentive waiter but when someone has hurt us or is hurting themselves. Why is it so hard to express ourselves to the people we're closest to?
Before you call my husband and tell him he's in trouble (like that's news) stop. This is not about him. We have very clear unspoken rules about topics for discussion. Basically, I discuss he ignores. It’s a guy thing and if you thought your marriage was going to be different then you should probably start a dialogue with your pharmacist or the wine guy at New Seasons.
This is about someone close to me whose behavior threw my entire life out of whack almost two years ago and who, while they may try and acknowledge their debt at times, still says things that indicate they have NO idea of the full impact of their actions. And yet, I say nothing. I have never told them exactly what I think about their behavior and the havoc it wreaked. I imagine there are a myriad of reasons, none of which are psychologically healthy (and are well beyond the cope of this little blog), but the greatest is most likely that it is easier to keep quiet.
Sort of quiet. Posting something personal on a blog, even in the larger context of social relationships, is a bit passive aggressive. I'm taking my chances because I'm curious how others feel about the topic. How often do you say what you're really thinking?
And if you really hate this subject don't worry, I'll be posting something wildly frivolous next. Like photos of kittens in tutus.....