Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place
Natasha Bedingford “Pocket full of Sunshine”
We can all acknowledge that the only time I have a pocket full of sunshine is after picking up my meds at the Rite-Aid but the refrain for this song has been stuck in my head for days keeping the premise on my mind. Do you ever have that sense that all you need is a change of scenery? That if you went somewhere else everything would be different? I am churning that feeling out like radio waves right now. After being laid off, burrowing in was a way to feel safe- my bed, my room with the sunshine pouring in, my books…those things helped me feel secure which was good after the shock but now I’m left feeling trapped and sometimes depressed. The sameness is stifling and serves only to remind me that this is reality and it may never change or that it could change and would include bankruptcy, selling the house, moving in with my mother, driving my car into a tree (this innate ability to catapult my mind from reality to the apocalypse in a matter of seconds is one of my husband’s least favorite things about me. Killjoy)
For me the sweet escape feels like Italy. I’ve never been but am pretty certain it is the place I’m looking for. I know that if I had a month in a Tuscan villa,
I would morph into some fantastic blend of Sophia Loren and Isak Dinesen.
Drinks on a terrace in Capri with scintillating conversation (forget that I only had one year college Italian) would revitalize and renew,
Charming courtyards would beckon me to sit and write
Annie Schlecter for Coastal Living
The ideas would flow and expand with the glorious food and wine
While charming but intriguing walkways would lead me to new adventures.
In short, if I were somewhere else I’d be someone else. Right? Not so, says a dear friend who has known me for decades. He claims “You’d turn around and you’d still be you.” First of all, thanks for that, but I could be a different me. One with no cares who lives in the moment and is open to adventure.